How I Accepted My Limits

September is suicide prevention month, so I wanted to share how I learned to accept myself. I have made so many posts about how I was suicidal and depressed in the past, but today I want to share the things I have learned to accept. I may not be fully comfortable with myself yet, but I have definitely improved greatly over the past few years.

One of my biggest obstacles throughout my life was maintaining relationships. This includes platonic relationships. I can make friends easily and get into romantic relationships easily, but struggle to keep them. I have had outbursts of anger, opened up to quickly, or just didn't' feel the connection was there. Whatever it was; it would end my relationships. I am learning that I care more about finding the right people in my life than I care about how many people are in my life. I am not saying I didn't do anything wrong. I am working on myself, but I also realized I want people in my life who can accept me when I make a mistake.

I have accepted that it is okay to make mistakes. I have had behavioral issues in the past and would sit depressed constantly thinking I feel like an abusive person. I have decided that instead of dwelling on the past, I should learn from past mistakes. I want better for myself, so I am trying to be better. I am okay with the fact that I need more help than the average person. I probably will always need a little support and that is okay as long as I am healthy mentally and physically.

I am accepting that some of my sensory issues may make me seem weird to the average person, but I am learning that I have never cared much what people think. This actually may be to a fault, but I am accepting it. I would rather not care what others think than care too much about it and be worrying constantly. I have seen how that affects some people negatively.

Another big limitation for me is working. I am learning that I have to accept that I cannot work full time. I just got a part time job working with adults with disabilities. I love it so far, but I am also reminding myself that it is okay if it ends up being too much for me. I know I have worked full time in the past, but my mental health has gotten worse since then. I need more accommodations than I used to. This one was hard to accept, but I have learned to make peace with it.

I have been told by people that I am very non-judgmental and I am realizing this is true and that is a great quality in me. I am also realizing that I am good at some things even if I struggle with others. I love writing and I am good at it. I love meeting people and working with people with disabilities. I am good at connecting with individuals with disabilities. I am good at spreading mental health awareness. I realize now that I do not have to be good at everything to accept myself. I just needed to accept my limits and be okay with them.

I would love to hear what others are good at and what you struggle with! I'm sure I have plenty more limitations and things I am good at, but I can't always get everything in my posts. I appreciate all of you who keep up and read my blog.